Macy Jo

change…

so the past month, i’ve changed.. and i’m getting okay with this.

i’ve realized that people aren’t worth it, relationships can wait, and God is forever. i’ve always been the happy and outgoing one… or completly opposite- the one who dreams too big for her good and wishes everything she can but this time it’s going to change.

God is number one in my life, and always will be.. i feel like my relationship with him has been bright then faded.. continue, and that can’t happen. light for my path. i need new friends in my life to help me grow and to support me. God has put me in this place for a reason, and i need to take that and work with it however i can.

i’m going to get over my insecurities and do what i want/need. i have to be fearless at all times. fearless of friends, guys, thoughts, dreams, or life in general. (cheesy, but: YOLO ;P) i’ve always been scared of everything and hidden in a shell, is it getting me anywhere? -no! although some things i have to chase after and some i have to accept are gone.

sometimes i wish i could rewind my life and do some things differently or start something earlier than planned, but then again maybe this is the perfect time to make this change and help others as well as myself.

i’m tired of people pushing me, and everyone else around. we don’t deserve that. i want to be the one to help and inspire others like few have inspired me.. yes that may be hard, but might as well try.

i have so many dreams that i want to accomplish, easy or hard- i will try. i’ve had so many conversations with friends lately about what we should be doing in life, and my answer gets shakier and shakier everytime i repeat it. follow big dreams, find new ones, or stick to simple reality?

sorry, alot is on my mind and i had to vent it off :)

-Macy Jo <3